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There we go. I’m ready to go. Okay, what are we gonna talk about today? What do you want to talk about?
About being a therapist and being real and being honest with people I work with. Well, I don’t call patients or clients because we’re equals. I share what I know, and they share what they want to learn and receive. We work out.
Sounds good. So where are we going? We’re going to the Strand. We’re gonna sell the coolest books. Darn, I love New York! Salutely! And we’re gonna get rid of old books and old ideas to make way for new books and new ideas.
This always sadness when a chapter ends is represented by letting go, getting rid of these old books. It brought up a lot of old memories and reminded me of times in my life when I wasn’t as conscious as I am now. I feel compassion for that old self.
What made you get rid of them?
I felt they were clogging me up. They were clogging up my apartment. But I want to be beautiful and free. But it represented a clogged up within myself that I really need to be a clear channel for truth.
What’s shifted for me in the last few years was I didn’t go to school to learn how to become a therapist. I went to therapy school, which was really trying to put my spirit in a box.
But the school did that, yes. But I was older and really established as a person, so they couldn’t do that. Most therapists haven’t done their homework. They haven’t really gone into the wilderness and the desolation of the abandoned wounded child. They like to use their clients as someone they can dominate, like their parents dominated them. And they haven’t got a clue that got to make a run for it. They haven’t got a clue what that they are really very wounded and not resolved and unhealed. And they love seeing their clients as troubled so that can fix their clients so that they don’t have to look at themselves.
So, what is your goal as a therapist?
To get people out of therapy. To get them to be artists in their own development, in their own lives. But I say, look, I’m not a parent. I’m like helping you. We’re in this together. Let’s start this out. This is what’s happening. Your parents did this. I don’t want to be your parent. I don’t want you to project that on me. I want, and I want you to stop acting it out with others. Let’s start no here.
It’s doing. If I can’t, they’re terrible. Not only did she not like me, I thought she hated me and replicated the dynamics of my parents. So I just kept with her, just hoping maybe I could win her love. I never won her love.
I help people look at their lives and the way they don’t function in their best interests. And I say that’s asking something off in childhood. So they’re replicating some sort of childhood experience, erupts some negative childhood experience, and they’re playing it up.
Why would people do that?
Well, because it’s too painful. Like I did with my therapist. I wanted an impossible unloving person to love me. If I could get her to love me, then I didn’t have to look at how my mother and father didn’t love me. It’s simple. I was acting out. I was acting out in therapy, and she loved us. She got a nice little tidy sum for it. We got to reap, in fact, cha-ching, twice a week. And I was replicating my mother and my father with her, trying to get her to love me. And now it’s like, ah, I think of her a therapist. How unethical that is. The thing is, she hadn’t done her own homework.
Do you feel lighter giving any of those books?
Yeah. How much money did you get?
Three dollars.
Three dollars? But you’ve a banker.
But I know you.